The Girl...

Sue is a psycho young teenager with a love for photography. She has shoulder-length brown hair and eyes. She's obsessed with anime & music. Her favorite band is Evanescence. People descirbe her as having mood swings, strange, naive, morbid, hyper, yet depressed + lacks smiles. She lives in California but wishes she lived in Alabama. Sue is also a fragile freak and loves squirrels.


She Loves
Dare. Jake. Rain. Music. Night. Flowers. Photography. Insanity. Love. Talking. Movies. Books. Blogs. Certain People. Black. Roleplaying. Spychoatry. Webdesigns. Books. Silver. Communicating.


She Dislikes

You. Coldness. Complete Silence. Sterotypes. Lack Of Individuality. Lack Of Compassion. Pessimistic Attitudes. Spam. Public bathrooms. Pop-Ups.


Memories consumed, Like opening the wounds, I'm picking me apart again
Forever Is a Promise and You Can't Afford To Lie.

Dude, I'd climb on top of you and fuck you silly.
Her True Friends

Roni F.- The ceiling is red.. Robert C.- ::kiss:: You give me Chills I love you... You make closets ever so fun. MOnet M.- I have a music maniac alcoholic sex addict. Chris G. [frozen] - Back Seat Movie Trip. Ha.
Jake A. Missed you.


Music She Enjoys...
A Perfect Circle. AFI. Cold. The Deftones. The Distillers. Evanescence. Finch. Hoobastank. Smile Empty Soul. Godsmack. Incubus. Linkin Park. Metallica. Nickelback. Nine Inch Nails. P.O.D. Seether. Puddle of Mudd. Stained. The Strockes. Mad Sin. The Darkness. Trapt. Weezer. Drowning Pool. The Hives. Slipknot. Sevendust. Shinedown. Story of the Year. Tantrict. The Used. Craddle of Filth. Social Burn. Eminem. Disturbed. Bad Religion. Less Than Jake. The Vines. Maroon 5. AC/DC. The Doors. The Who. Nirvana. Social Infestation. Dido. Gorillaz. Misfits. Nekromantix. Unleashed.

Ohhh God.. So Many More, But She's Tired Now.
She was born into a world of tears, she always tend to look at the darker things in life. Inside of her she craves attention yet push away society, and she's a hopeless romantic. Drawn to things like the occult and mysteries, she spends her time daydreaming.
She's Sad. She use's the darkness to hide herself from the world. Something has really hurted her, which made her turn dark. Darkness makes her feel saved and that is why she stays there.


   


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  • Saturday, June 05, 2004
    ¥Wasted On Soda...

    Tonight was such a waste of a saturday. I get outa the shower and Tyler calls... "Hey Sue, there's a party right now you want to come?. Me- Uh, where at? Him- Rauls Me- WHat type of party Him- Just a kick back party Me- Okay, whose there?  Him- Uh, Raul, Pedro,  David, Claudia & BERT. -sigh- I kind of got mad the way he said his name... Kind alike saying he's there so you have to come. So I called up Monet and asked if she wanted to be come. My mom & I went to pick her up. When I got there Monet shoved my shoulder and said go say hi to him. Claudia was like, oh yeah, they were tlaking 'bout you guys. I was like what??? She's like yeah they said that Tasha & Juan were all over achother & Gilbert and & you were too... My face turned bright red. I wanted to talk to him, but everyone just made it so obvious that they wanted us to flirt that it just killed everything. Everything sucked. Except for their band. | Never Fall | . They got way better since Claudia's V-day Party. Rauls lead vocals. Pedro's the drummer. Tylers lead guitarist and Gilbert's 2nd. Raulds family are such haters though. "All they can do is talk shit". They hated the music because is was Alternative/Rock/Metal. After they got done playing we all went into Raul's room where he keeps all his instruments and stuff and just talked. Well they did. All i could do is think 'bout how bored i was and how far away he was from me. Janet got ther but she was late.. Monet went hoem early.. everyone else that was there I didn't give a shit. Daivd was supposed to go to Evelyns to bring ppl, fucker never came back. Then the damn phone had to ring for me. Mom wanted me home. Agh, i told her 10 more minutes and we went outside to play tag. lol Hey it was dark. ;-) . Blah. Then mom got there and claudia gave me a hug bye and Tyler too.. I didn't even say bye to him. :-\ He was running from Raul. Point is I got home at 10. It so sucked. I didn't even got to talk to Dare. Agh. MOnday Summer schools start. Joy. But hey, I get to see my friends again. & even better, NO UNIFORMS. FInally... we've been wearing them since 3rd grade. This year in High school is going to be wasy different. I just hope it's in a good way.

    Posted at 6/5/2004 10:24:16 pm by faded-tears
    Hurt Me...

    Thursday, June 03, 2004
    Vitamin C - Graduation Song.

    Yesterday June 2nd Was Our Graduation. Woo Hoo.. It was awesome! I'm so proud of myself lol. Right. -_- Ceramony was long, but it was nice. Eric's was the sames day. Except He had to be there at 6.  I really wanted to see him graduate as well but noooo I couldn't. I had to the football field, he's was in the audotoriam because his school is way samller. Lucky Punk. Dad didn't come. But hey.. He called me while I was getting ready & apoligized for not being there and wished me luck.. I thought that was eh, nice of him. The say before he had asked me if i wanted him to come and sinceI didn't answer I don't kno what he thought. What? I knew he had to go to work. So.. it was my graduation, and he missed it.. not like that's anything new.  Ann did my hair and make-up she's so sweet.  Eeryone looked way different. Joe didn't graduate. Ha, Loser. Creep!  After that was over we went to the School's Dance. It was a hawain theme. How stupid is that? I mean.. come on.. graduation aren't supposed to have themes. Guess it was in memory of Mrs. Vicky Tucker.[ 1955-2004 R.I.P.] It was fun except for the fact that i lost my god damn camera... and it had a  lot of pictures [mostlys erics] and I felt so bad for loosing it.. It fell outa my purse. Go figure. This is how it started Roni  just had to go poke Pedro so I'm like okay let's go. Pokey poke poke [ha filiberto]. Blah. And Gilbert was there.. Ahhh So westarted talking. And there was funky music on and i wanted to dance just not to that music, and we said we would dance the next dance together... BUT Roni's mom was there to pick usup to go to her party.. sooo yet i still wanted to dance with him.. So he's like, "you're jaming?" I'm like "yeah.. but hey you still owe me a dance" And he said I don't knwo when we'll be in another party together.. So im like.. Well, im going to another party right now.. So if you want to come.. let's go.. He asked Pedro Raul Tyler Juan.. etc.. and their like yeah we'lll go just tell us where it's going to be at. we'll go in a couple of minutes.. so we said bye.. And we arried at Roni's House. She had a lot of family member whch is cool cause they were like from far away. Roni was busy serving food..MOnet and Me were looking out the street basically just walking around waiting for the guys to get there.. When thry got there Tylers Mom had droped them off. So we went to meet them in the strret and as part of their gretting hugs and shit.. I thought it was funny Gilbert saw me and he's like "Sue!" He gave me a hug an lifted me at the same time... I was like Hey.. I almost fell.. He's like I'm Sorry.. And Did it again.. lol. SO we went in. Roni put music on, and everybody started talking and shit. We "tried" to dance. lol. I thought it was funny.. THere wasn't a lot of slow music.. even htough he asked for some.. Rauls and them were looking at us funny.. lol We were the only ones dancing lol. He sticked with me through out the whole night! It was awesome lol. I got to Talk to Raul, hes actually not that bad. [much to my surprice] I kinda got the vive that Roni was a little mad at me. "she said, why did the guys even come? Cause you were here? I mean.. I don't really talk to them much" We left a little after midnight, Her dad took us home. [that was really nice, since i live far form her] Everytime Raul  Cecar  Juan or Tyler even started tlaking 'bout going home. He looked at me , i remember i was sitting on his lap, as he smiled and said,  "i don't want to go home yet." Eh so guess that's enough 'bout that. Point is, I had "fun" in my own twizted way. I DO NOT LIKE GILBERT though, just want to get that clear. I can't. Today June 3rd school ended. Lunch A had a huge food fight in the cafeteria. If you've ever seen Max Keebles Big Move it was excatly liek it, except for the fact that there was no Monkey jumping on top of our principle. What was even worse was tha right after that one they had a smaller one outside.They sent a hell of a lot of the kids in my grade home, they said you knwo what we can't take this and they just kciked them out like that.. "get off campas" and that's how the last day ended for most kids. ha ha losers. I went t my p.e class like 5 minutes before they sent everone home lol. shh.. There was only Gilbert, e-man, Ady, & Maria in it. Gilbert bit me twice more. So i bit him back, and e-man took of me doing it. lol Wonder hwo it will come out. Joe had to tlak in though.. He killed everything!  7th period bell rang and we headed for our class, Sergio screamed sue! & before i could turn around he had trwon a water ballon right at my ass lol I was dripping wet. -_- But it was hella hot so i dried off really fast. So yeah..school is over. But I have summer school and it starts on MOnday. Fuckers. I need sleep! After thats done I have the summer acadamy to go to... I can't even remember when that starts but I'll have ot find out later. Blah. That will be 'boutmy whole summer. SCHOOL. Fuck, that's gonna be fun. Hmm.. bright side is.. Robert's been back since June 1st. God I've missed him. he's changed though. No longer with Amber I wonder if he's bitter. I hope not. Havent talked to Jake in a couple of days and I'm trying to keep Dare comtepmt. 2 months on JUne 7th. ^_^ I <3 him so mcuh, just wish he could hold me the way bert did. -_- 

    Artist : Vitamin C

    Title : Graduation (Friends Forever)

    Album : N/A

    Genre : Pop


    Album Cover.

    -Negative-
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    Last Song Played At Our Ceremony <<<

    And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
    Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
    I keep thinking times will never change
    Keep on thinking things will always be the same
    But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
    No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
    And if you got something that you need to say
    You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
    Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
    These memories are playing like a film without sound
    And I keep thinking of that night in June 
    I didn't know much of love
    But it came too soon
    And there was me and you
    And then we got real cool
    Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
    We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
    Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
    And this is how it feels
    
    1 - As we go on
    We remember
    All the times we
    Had together
    And as our lives change
    Come whatever
    We will still be
    Friends Forever
    
     
    So if we get the big jobs
    And we make the big money
    When we look back now
    Will our jokes still be funny?
    Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
    Still be trying to break every single rule
    Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
    Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
    I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
    Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
    And this is how it feels
    
    Repeat 1
    
    La, la, la, la?Yeah, yeah, yeah
    La, la, la, la?We will still be friends forever
    
    Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
    Can we survive it out there?
    Can we make it somehow?
    I guess I thought that this would never end
    And suddenly it's like we're women and men
    Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
    Will these memories fade when I leave this town
    I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
    Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
    
    Repeat 1 (3x)
    

    Posted at 6/3/2004 9:39:46 pm by faded-tears
    Hurt Me...

    Monday, May 31, 2004
    Cutting Away The Pain...

    Wednesday 26th, 2004 my friends and I spent the day at Six Flags Magic Mountain. It's in Valencia so it only took couple of hours to get there. [Compared to Hollywood, that's not a long time] Anyway, I had a blast. I love the water rides. Yet the rollercoaster always give me a thrill. Friday 28th, We had graduation practice. That wasn't a very good day. The fact that Joe actually hates me, with a passion, finally sinked in. God, I never knew I could cry for so long. No one got me to smile until 7th period, when the bell rang. Juan isn't in my History class but he had to finish his work so he stayed through out the whole period. Once everyone has practically left, he came over and gave me a hug. He asked what was wrong and we headed towards out the door. Roni was also there, shes so cool, and to try to make me feel better she put her hands around my neck. Juan tried to put his hand 'round my shoulder but she took his hand off and said, "No, you can't have here, she's mine!". To which He quickly responded with a , "You Lezbo! What are you trying to do, grab her boobs?" That cracked me up. Go Figure. That same day I went to Monets Graduation Party. A little early but hey, it's still a party. Got my nails done for graduation.. ha..  I saw Joe today.. I wanted to die..  Im so used to seing him in uniforn.. he looked  h    o       t. Yeah but w/e. So close to graduation.. it's scary. Mom got me in trouble of cutting my wrist. She said Im not to do it again. But on fiday when i was so mad.. the pain felt soo good.  I don't see why people have to stare though, just cause my wrist get a little red. Fuckers. Jake read one of my webpages and asked why on roberts page I put, Should I smile because your my friend, or cry because that's all we'll ever be.?" I said.. because I kinda really liked him, that he was my best guy friend. And hes like okay.. but it still made mfe feel bad.. Sooo all I could say was sorry. I do feel bad because what I'm doing to him.

    Posted at 5/31/2004 8:24:09 pm by faded-tears
    Hurt Me...

    Friday, May 21, 2004
    A Gothic romance [Red Roses For The Devils Whore]

    A Gothic romance [Red Roses For The Devils Whore] AWESOME SONG!
    Well, things seem to be looking up. Today's Thursday, May 21st, 2004. Thankfully I didn't go to school yesterday. We spent the day at Universal Studios Hollywood and basically just followed the Park schedule.  ||Take in mind we got let at 7 got there at 10. left at 3:30 something. Got Home at 7. Heh.|| This is what I remember we went on, lol: *Studios Tour [45 Minutes] It was Okay. *Water World [15 Minutes] Awesome! *Shrek 4-D [20 Minutes] Eh, shhh.… Van Helsing Fortress Dracula -sorta like a maze. I liked it! *Backdraft [20 Minutes] *Jurassic Park the ride [10 Minutes] We did some late minute shopping, nothing special though. Revenge of the Mummy the ride isn't open 'til June 25th. So that kinda sucks. May 28th were going to Six Flags Magic Mountain in Valencia. 2 More day's 'till my birthday. [On May 23rd] Yay me. Don't even bother asking for my age because your never supposed to ask a lady for her age ... it's just plain R U D E! Eh, I can't wait for my graduation! Al though I must confess I don't want to end this year just yet. Couple of days ago my brother didn't come home. fucker. Well, he did in the morning.… But he got dad all mad and mom really upset. FREAK. Dad hollered at me. Hmm ... that's one of the worst things he's ever done at me. He has a loud voice when he gets mad. It scares. I hate having him home so long. I'm not used to him and he's not used to us. He's work at Oregon  1 year contract finally ended. Now its a little father than Oregon still in Oregon though. He started yesterday. he'll be back soon enough ... most likely right after my birthday passes. Blah!  We recieved our yearbooks today. I could have gotten it yesterday but stupid me didn't go to school. Oh and our cap and gown finally arrived. Joy..I think. Anyway read this conversation :-) :
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    Posted at 5/21/2004 5:07:49 pm by faded-tears
    Hurt Me...

    Sunday, May 16, 2004
    More fun than chewing razor blades… Seriously.

    More fun than chewing razor blades.… Seriously.
    Long story made short. Love sucks ... more than me.This page is no longer password protected because I realized.… This Blog meant to be read, that's why its online.… So, yeah. Haven't written in here in a long time. I cut my hair today! Its in layers ... again. Shorter than it has ever been though. A couple of weeks ago, Sarah & I went shopping for our graduation dress. We went to like 3 difference malls in one day searching for it. lol. Yet We found the one we wanted! Its black ... and white.… Strapless but who cares.… Only thing I don't like is that it looks a little too much like a prom dress.Eh, dressing rooms were sorta packed so me and Sarah got into the same one, lol. I could hardly walk when we got done. Shopping hurts! Schools almost over. In fall I'll be a lady bear for our high school.That sounds fun huh? Anyway, so far we've received our panoramic picture that we order of our whole grade. Along with A. T-shirt with the student who will be graduating June 2nd. I'm on it,YAY. :: Cough:: Okay. Gosh.. Mary's sick. I feel so bad for her. she's so skinny and her bones are so fragile. She has a fever. My poor baby . I hope she gets better soon, because otherwise she'll have to pay her doctor another visit. Mhm.. I hate doctors too. I decided It would be best if i stayed with _ a_e. I just love him so much, its sad. .He worries me though. His dad is violent and they're constantly getting into arguments.. yes, I know he is a grown man and take care of himself, I just wished theyre was something I could do to make it better for him.  It kills me that I can't .                            

     XxSuexX


    Posted at 5/16/2004 5:27:09 pm by faded-tears
    (1)Cuts, Will You Hurt MeToo?

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